This is so bad. I can’t stop thinking about it, about everything thats happened. Everything you say doesn’t help at all, why do you bring up things like that & make me feel like you’re not over it either. I don’t really understand why I am so deeply involved in this, it absolutely sucks. I feel so stupid, but then again I don’t cause you tell me the same thing. But I feel like you’re so full of shit, saying all these things to keep me here because you know I will.

I just wanna go back, fix everything, make a better choice and maybe we wouldn’t be in this situation & be involved in this & not knowing what to do about it. I think we both know, but we’re too scared to admit it. Talking about it only makes it worse, feelings are brought back & we know we can’t do that, not right now at least.

I don’t know what to think about all this or do. I guess all I’m trying to say is…

I want it back.